TWO WEEKS!!!
Till what you ask? Fall break!!! It's crazy how time flies. The first two months at ORU have been great, even through the loss of my roomie and the time spent away from home. I never thought I would be so excited to come home for breaks, but I seriously am GIDDY with excitement every time I think of going home! I can't wait to spend time with my family, sleep in my own bed, see everyone at church, everything!! I wonder will Sophie, the family dog, even recognize me when I return? Will my room be the same? I can't wait to see my brother Peter run cross country as a FRESHMAN in HIGH SCHOOL, and hear all about what God's doing through my brother Collin as he's student leading at GRAVITY and in his cell group. I can't wait to sit down at the table for dinner and get a delicious home-cooked meal from my mom and sit out on the porch under the heater with my dad.
There's really no place like home!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
What a Summer!
Woooh, it has been one busy summer! Missions trip to Colombia, Bolin family reunion, and now just 9 days till I'm headed down to Oral Roberts University! It's been forever since I've posted so I thought I might just give you a quick update! Colombia was absolutely life-changing and incredible. That's a whole post in itself! but here are a few pics to give you a tiny taste of what I experienced while in Bogota.
Pamela was one of my favorites. Her smile could brighten up a room and she was so eager to give you a huge hug and kiss!
We did lots of youth rallies. This one took place on sunday morning for the children. We taught them a worship song we had learned in spanish before we came. It is Mighty to Save by Hillsong United.
I washed lice out of Lorena's hair. She was such a sweetheart! We did lots of washing childrens' hair with lice shampoo. Although it probably doesn't help for long, it is another way to express love to the children.
This is Juanita. She is two years old and full of energy!
We stayed at this bible college in Bogota and woke up to this scenery every morning. :)
A group of the older girls posed for a picture with me
Another shot depicting the area in which we worked.
Karen was another favorite of mine. She has such a sweet spirit. The last day we were there she came to me and just bawled. She didn't want us to go. And when we ended our time at the Institute with a big praise party she was very reluctant and sad to begin with but then I got her up on her feet and God turned her mourning into dancing!
I loved all the ages of the children at the Institute! Here are some of the younger kiddos.
I miss it there so much and cannot wait to go back! It was my first missions trip and definitely not my last! God opened my heart and gave me a new worldview. He also revealed a new part of His heart to me through the childrens' joy even though they were suffering. Almost every child from the institute has a story and a broken home. I am so honored to be able to help bring the joy and love and light of Christ into the dark places in their lives. If you have never been out of the country on a missions trip, I challenge you to go. It is such a lifechanging experience and it is amazing how God will use you if you are open to his leading!
The Team- all 21 of us!
This is the township of Bogota we worked in, called Suba. We worked in an institute for children in this area to come and get a warm meal and get taught about Jesus. It is like a safe haven from their normal daily lives.
Pamela was one of my favorites. Her smile could brighten up a room and she was so eager to give you a huge hug and kiss!
We did lots of youth rallies. This one took place on sunday morning for the children. We taught them a worship song we had learned in spanish before we came. It is Mighty to Save by Hillsong United.
I washed lice out of Lorena's hair. She was such a sweetheart! We did lots of washing childrens' hair with lice shampoo. Although it probably doesn't help for long, it is another way to express love to the children.
This is Juanita. She is two years old and full of energy!
We stayed at this bible college in Bogota and woke up to this scenery every morning. :)
A group of the older girls posed for a picture with me
Another shot depicting the area in which we worked.
Karen was another favorite of mine. She has such a sweet spirit. The last day we were there she came to me and just bawled. She didn't want us to go. And when we ended our time at the Institute with a big praise party she was very reluctant and sad to begin with but then I got her up on her feet and God turned her mourning into dancing!
I loved all the ages of the children at the Institute! Here are some of the younger kiddos.I miss it there so much and cannot wait to go back! It was my first missions trip and definitely not my last! God opened my heart and gave me a new worldview. He also revealed a new part of His heart to me through the childrens' joy even though they were suffering. Almost every child from the institute has a story and a broken home. I am so honored to be able to help bring the joy and love and light of Christ into the dark places in their lives. If you have never been out of the country on a missions trip, I challenge you to go. It is such a lifechanging experience and it is amazing how God will use you if you are open to his leading!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Bones...Bones...OH and did I mention Bones?
Whenever I feel like I've experienced it all, God gives me SO SO SO much more! It's so amazing. Anyway, God has given me a word from Him for our city and I want to share it to you so you can be impacted and share in it's glory!
What is it you ask? EZEKIAL 37
Let's go back maybe like a year and a half - two years. This is when God started working this vision/prophesy in my life. I was on the prayer/worship team at Concordia High School. That become the canopy for what God wanted to do in the school-dry bones becoming a vast army for Him. Okay, cool. Awesome.
Next part of the story- fast forward a year or two to Thursday, April 16th 2009. Sound familiar to any of you GRAVITY peeps? Yes, that is when GRAVITY invaded Bellevue East and had a service called 1 LYFE that night. During pre-service prayer, I was praying (imagine that!) and God told me to pray Ezekial 37 over the school, and I did so. During P. Jesse's message that night, He talked about Ezekial 37! I thought, "Oh wow God that's so cool!" But it hadn't even started there.
Saturday night at the college/career group The Underground at church, I heard that P. Jason had preached over what?!? Ezekial 37. I didn't even know that until 2 days ago. Then, I was sitting in church Sunday morning. P. Jeff, our music pastor, preached about what?!??????
EZEKIAL 37
And no, none of the pastors had talked, no one had talked to me or anything. God did it all. Now, let's use common sense here, in a period of 4 days, God confirmed what He had put in my heart to pray over BE and CHS 3 times, plus another time just this week with a friend of mine. Ya think that's what He's trying to tell us? haha I'm thinkin!!!
The great thing is that Sunday isn't where it ends! God gave me revelation after revelation this week. 1st off- GRAVITY had Wed. night service at Bryan Middle School this past Wed. nite. Right before the service was starting, I had Deja Vu. I knew it had come from a dream from a while ago. (BUNNY TRAIL: Did you know Deja Vu is the forming of the prophetic in your life? So if you have DejaVu a lot like me, chances are that God has given you the gift of prophesy and you should start moving in that. Don't be afraid!) Ok, back to the deja vu. After the service then, when I was at home thinking about that, God gave me this mini revelation: I do not doubt that I had that dream around the same time when I first got a vision for Ezekial 37 in Concordia. How cool is that? AHH GOD IS SO AWESOME!
The week before, at Bellevue East, P. Jesse prophesied that the many empty chairs in that auditorium would be filled when we came back to the school. I have thought about that in every school we have been in. So wed. night after the service I was thinking about that concept in accordance to Ezekial 37. Then I remembered the 2nd part to that chapter. Many people forget about the 2nd half of chapter 37. That basically talks about unity and how the houses of Israel and Judah will be reuinited. This is how I interpret that for this principle of filling the seats: When God does open the floodgates of heaven and we have this amazing indescribable breathrough, He will use us as Ezekials to prophesy over the dry bones to live. When the dry bones ( students alll over omaha) become filled with life, they will rise up like a mighty army. This army will be united with us, the forerunners. We will become one body and will unite and that will show in the auditoriums of schools across the area. There will be not one empty seat in the house!
I thought this was a very profound statement "Drought is the build up of rain" (P. Jesse). I was reading in Zechariah 10 and it says, "Pray to God for rain—it's time for the spring rain— to God, the rainmaker,Spring thunderstorm maker, maker of grain and barley." (The Message) I don't believe I "accidentally" flipped to that chapter. I don't believe I "accidentally" watched about the last 10 minutes of A Cinderella Story. I don't believe in accidents. If you were to come to a service at Gravity, you could almost feel the clouds above-ready to burst. God is about to pour out His rain on the dry bones and they will dance in his healing waters that will heal their souls.
You don't wanna miss this amazing breakthrough about to take place- prepare your heart! Get yourself ready- cuz if you aren't ready in time, God is gonna separate the weeds from the wheat.
What is it you ask? EZEKIAL 37
Let's go back maybe like a year and a half - two years. This is when God started working this vision/prophesy in my life. I was on the prayer/worship team at Concordia High School. That become the canopy for what God wanted to do in the school-dry bones becoming a vast army for Him. Okay, cool. Awesome.
Next part of the story- fast forward a year or two to Thursday, April 16th 2009. Sound familiar to any of you GRAVITY peeps? Yes, that is when GRAVITY invaded Bellevue East and had a service called 1 LYFE that night. During pre-service prayer, I was praying (imagine that!) and God told me to pray Ezekial 37 over the school, and I did so. During P. Jesse's message that night, He talked about Ezekial 37! I thought, "Oh wow God that's so cool!" But it hadn't even started there.
Saturday night at the college/career group The Underground at church, I heard that P. Jason had preached over what?!? Ezekial 37. I didn't even know that until 2 days ago. Then, I was sitting in church Sunday morning. P. Jeff, our music pastor, preached about what?!??????
EZEKIAL 37
And no, none of the pastors had talked, no one had talked to me or anything. God did it all. Now, let's use common sense here, in a period of 4 days, God confirmed what He had put in my heart to pray over BE and CHS 3 times, plus another time just this week with a friend of mine. Ya think that's what He's trying to tell us? haha I'm thinkin!!!
The great thing is that Sunday isn't where it ends! God gave me revelation after revelation this week. 1st off- GRAVITY had Wed. night service at Bryan Middle School this past Wed. nite. Right before the service was starting, I had Deja Vu. I knew it had come from a dream from a while ago. (BUNNY TRAIL: Did you know Deja Vu is the forming of the prophetic in your life? So if you have DejaVu a lot like me, chances are that God has given you the gift of prophesy and you should start moving in that. Don't be afraid!) Ok, back to the deja vu. After the service then, when I was at home thinking about that, God gave me this mini revelation: I do not doubt that I had that dream around the same time when I first got a vision for Ezekial 37 in Concordia. How cool is that? AHH GOD IS SO AWESOME!
The week before, at Bellevue East, P. Jesse prophesied that the many empty chairs in that auditorium would be filled when we came back to the school. I have thought about that in every school we have been in. So wed. night after the service I was thinking about that concept in accordance to Ezekial 37. Then I remembered the 2nd part to that chapter. Many people forget about the 2nd half of chapter 37. That basically talks about unity and how the houses of Israel and Judah will be reuinited. This is how I interpret that for this principle of filling the seats: When God does open the floodgates of heaven and we have this amazing indescribable breathrough, He will use us as Ezekials to prophesy over the dry bones to live. When the dry bones ( students alll over omaha) become filled with life, they will rise up like a mighty army. This army will be united with us, the forerunners. We will become one body and will unite and that will show in the auditoriums of schools across the area. There will be not one empty seat in the house!
I thought this was a very profound statement "Drought is the build up of rain" (P. Jesse). I was reading in Zechariah 10 and it says, "Pray to God for rain—it's time for the spring rain— to God, the rainmaker,Spring thunderstorm maker, maker of grain and barley." (The Message) I don't believe I "accidentally" flipped to that chapter. I don't believe I "accidentally" watched about the last 10 minutes of A Cinderella Story. I don't believe in accidents. If you were to come to a service at Gravity, you could almost feel the clouds above-ready to burst. God is about to pour out His rain on the dry bones and they will dance in his healing waters that will heal their souls.
You don't wanna miss this amazing breakthrough about to take place- prepare your heart! Get yourself ready- cuz if you aren't ready in time, God is gonna separate the weeds from the wheat.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Love is in the air
I was having time with Jesus while packing on Tuesday getting ready to go to Arizona and I want to share what has been imprinted on my heart since then and what I can't get out of my mind.
I think we forget sometimes that Jesus, when He came to this earth, He went through the whole teenager stage, like we do. He endured what we are going through. The only difference: He didn't allow Satan to distract Him with depression, partying, and romantic relationships. But the thing about it is, you don't have to allow it either! We do make mistakes and fall into sin, but we don't have to! Jesus didn't and He conquered the grave so we don't have to.
Spring time is full of make-ups, break-ups, and hook-ups. The thing is, 99% of these aren't what God has in store for your life! we think that finding a significant other, dating, and then it will all be "happily ever after" while most of the time, that's not the case. There is something very significant about being single. The only reason why God allows you to get into relationships you aren't supposed to get into is because you have been given the free will to do so. Just cuz you hook up with a guy and feel like he's your "Prince Charming" he's probably not. A friend told me once that you have to be secure with yourself being single before you get into a relationship. why? If you are insecure about yourself, you are only bringing another person on board with your problems, along with theirs. Theres no doubt then that your relationship won't work out! Rather, pursue God, love Him wholeheartedly, let your passions run wild for Him, and then while your running you'll look to your side, see someone running next to you, who God has set in mind for you and He will give you that relationship. Jesus never had a wife, date, relationship, etc. and he did just fine. Now, if you think He didn't want that on earth, you're wrong. I mean, I don't know exactly, but God created humans to have those pursuits and passions. He wants us to find someone we can be in unity and relationship with. The thing is, His timing is everything. When I see people hooking up and all that, sometimes I wish that I was in a relationship, but then I just run after and pursue God even more. He is your first love.
When you are feeling down, depressed, etc. remember that is how the devil wants you to stay, but know that you need to take hold of what God has in store for your life, like Jesus did and overtake satan!! We are co-heirs with Christ. That means we are brothers and sisters of Him. We share His blood. We aren't any lower than Him, we just have sin in our lives that he has already overcome. I hope this encourages you, like it does me.
One more thing, do you know that when Jesus went back to heaven after conquering death, hell and the grave that it was like a big welcome home party? And thats the same thing that's gonna happen to us. it says in 2 Corinthians 5 that "The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what's ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less." He has put a taste of heaven in our hearts, so we long for what He has in store for us in heaven! That's why we are so hungry for more of God. He puts that in our DNA.
Keep running after Him, cuz He's running after you!
I think we forget sometimes that Jesus, when He came to this earth, He went through the whole teenager stage, like we do. He endured what we are going through. The only difference: He didn't allow Satan to distract Him with depression, partying, and romantic relationships. But the thing about it is, you don't have to allow it either! We do make mistakes and fall into sin, but we don't have to! Jesus didn't and He conquered the grave so we don't have to.
Spring time is full of make-ups, break-ups, and hook-ups. The thing is, 99% of these aren't what God has in store for your life! we think that finding a significant other, dating, and then it will all be "happily ever after" while most of the time, that's not the case. There is something very significant about being single. The only reason why God allows you to get into relationships you aren't supposed to get into is because you have been given the free will to do so. Just cuz you hook up with a guy and feel like he's your "Prince Charming" he's probably not. A friend told me once that you have to be secure with yourself being single before you get into a relationship. why? If you are insecure about yourself, you are only bringing another person on board with your problems, along with theirs. Theres no doubt then that your relationship won't work out! Rather, pursue God, love Him wholeheartedly, let your passions run wild for Him, and then while your running you'll look to your side, see someone running next to you, who God has set in mind for you and He will give you that relationship. Jesus never had a wife, date, relationship, etc. and he did just fine. Now, if you think He didn't want that on earth, you're wrong. I mean, I don't know exactly, but God created humans to have those pursuits and passions. He wants us to find someone we can be in unity and relationship with. The thing is, His timing is everything. When I see people hooking up and all that, sometimes I wish that I was in a relationship, but then I just run after and pursue God even more. He is your first love.
When you are feeling down, depressed, etc. remember that is how the devil wants you to stay, but know that you need to take hold of what God has in store for your life, like Jesus did and overtake satan!! We are co-heirs with Christ. That means we are brothers and sisters of Him. We share His blood. We aren't any lower than Him, we just have sin in our lives that he has already overcome. I hope this encourages you, like it does me.
One more thing, do you know that when Jesus went back to heaven after conquering death, hell and the grave that it was like a big welcome home party? And thats the same thing that's gonna happen to us. it says in 2 Corinthians 5 that "The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what's ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less." He has put a taste of heaven in our hearts, so we long for what He has in store for us in heaven! That's why we are so hungry for more of God. He puts that in our DNA.
Keep running after Him, cuz He's running after you!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Sunshine :)
So, I have spring break this week, and what an AMAZING week it is!! I love love love the weather, plus it's great taking a breather from the day in- day out hum of busy life!
As I sit here drinking my coffee and looking outside, I can't help but rejoice! God is so good and he never stops proving his faithfulness.
I finally have decided on what in the heck I'm doing next year. I will be going to Oral Roberts University in Tulsa, OK for the remainder of my college career. I have about $11,500 in scholarships right now, which is pretty good for me! I know God will provide the rest :)
Also, I have been searching high and low for a job, have turned in over 20 applications, and finally have an interview at Justice for girls! I am really excited about that. I think that would be a fun job, cuz I love fashion and I love kids!
I am going to Columbia this summer on a missions trip with the youth church, and I am SO FREAKIN EXCITED! lol. but really, it's gonna be my first missions trip, and I can't wait!! Only about 84 days?!? (you can look at my countdown on the right for the exact time) One of the reasons I have been so determined on getting a job is because I need about $1500 for this trip. I decided that I would look up all the families in my neighborhood in our directory, which also has their email addresses. So I emailed all these parents, and have already gotten 5 responses! So God has been so faithful in allowing me to get jobs to earn money!
Spring is here! Birds are chirping, sun is shining, trees are budding, grass is growing, I love it!!
As I sit here drinking my coffee and looking outside, I can't help but rejoice! God is so good and he never stops proving his faithfulness.
I finally have decided on what in the heck I'm doing next year. I will be going to Oral Roberts University in Tulsa, OK for the remainder of my college career. I have about $11,500 in scholarships right now, which is pretty good for me! I know God will provide the rest :)
Also, I have been searching high and low for a job, have turned in over 20 applications, and finally have an interview at Justice for girls! I am really excited about that. I think that would be a fun job, cuz I love fashion and I love kids!
I am going to Columbia this summer on a missions trip with the youth church, and I am SO FREAKIN EXCITED! lol. but really, it's gonna be my first missions trip, and I can't wait!! Only about 84 days?!? (you can look at my countdown on the right for the exact time) One of the reasons I have been so determined on getting a job is because I need about $1500 for this trip. I decided that I would look up all the families in my neighborhood in our directory, which also has their email addresses. So I emailed all these parents, and have already gotten 5 responses! So God has been so faithful in allowing me to get jobs to earn money!
Spring is here! Birds are chirping, sun is shining, trees are budding, grass is growing, I love it!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
"You invented love so you could be infatuated just with me. You invented romance to let me see I'd fall for you if you fell for me." - Nicholas Peterson
WOW. Do you ever have those moments where you listen to a song over and over but never GOT the song until that moment? Well, here am I at one of those moments. It's kinda (ok really) crazy to think about God inventing love-- to be so infatuated with me, little ol' me! The definition of infatuated is: to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love. So, it's not JUST love- it's like that feeling you get when you see your "special someone" walk past you, or when you see a guy/girl and you feel all giddy inside x 100000000000... He is THAT in love with you. It's so mind boggling to think about, but so true.
Have you ever thought about what life would be like without love? I highly doubt humanity would have gotten past the Garden of Eden!! We usually don't think about how crucial love is in our lives, and throw it around like it's nothing, yet when you try to comprehend it, you can't.
I don't know about you, but I am forever passionately pursuing my first true love- the One who invented it JUST so He could romance me and be infatuated, foolishly overwhelmed with love, with me. <3
WOW. Do you ever have those moments where you listen to a song over and over but never GOT the song until that moment? Well, here am I at one of those moments. It's kinda (ok really) crazy to think about God inventing love-- to be so infatuated with me, little ol' me! The definition of infatuated is: to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love. So, it's not JUST love- it's like that feeling you get when you see your "special someone" walk past you, or when you see a guy/girl and you feel all giddy inside x 100000000000... He is THAT in love with you. It's so mind boggling to think about, but so true.
Have you ever thought about what life would be like without love? I highly doubt humanity would have gotten past the Garden of Eden!! We usually don't think about how crucial love is in our lives, and throw it around like it's nothing, yet when you try to comprehend it, you can't.
I don't know about you, but I am forever passionately pursuing my first true love- the One who invented it JUST so He could romance me and be infatuated, foolishly overwhelmed with love, with me. <3
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Always on my Mind
God is SO GOOD!
I've been fasting since monday and the Lord has done so much in my heart, I can't even begin to put it into words, but I'll try :)
The past few weeks have really been a struggle for me (as noted in the highschool/college post). Just to recap for anyone who didn't read that one, I have felt like though I am in college, my family still has it in mind that I am not. I got SO FED UP with it because I think I should be doing things different than what is going on right now. Sunday afternoon was the last straw, and I finally broke down (to my grandparents, oddly enough). And then I felt a little better, just sort of getting it all out. But I realized there was so much more built up. I really hadn't thought of it as a grudge or a big deal, but it definitely was. There was STILL more in there, and more that was added, last night. I really wanted to drive to prayer at the church, because my dad had let me do it the week before. Since there was some snow on the streets in our neighborhood, my mom had to take me. That was another bit of bitterness (wow, didn't think it was THAT bad!).
I got to prayer and just started worshipping and walking around and stuff when I just had this feeling to go get my journal out. So I did, and it started pouring out through my fingertips to the pen onto the paper. All the thoughts, frustration, everything was thrust out of my being onto the page. And, of course, I started bawling. Then started the healing/recovery process. It's kind of ironic (but I guess that's how God works), because my prayer when I was done writing was that my parents would trust me more. God started speaking to me through song (what a surprise [not really]) I hadn't really understood fully what the second part of the chorus to "Healer" by Planetshakers was until then. "I believe you're my Portion. I believe you're more than enough for me. Jesus, you're all I need." God was saying that I just needed to put all my trust in Him...He will walk with me through the fire, and calm my raging seas. But He can't do that without all my trust.
Wow, did I feel like a weight was lifted off! or should I say weights: frustration, doubt, worry, lukewarmness, etc. I received a new fresh appetite for the Lord. I have been praying for a long time for a new revelation from Him, and I got it. Now I seriously can't stop thinking about Him. He really is always on my mind.
I've been fasting since monday and the Lord has done so much in my heart, I can't even begin to put it into words, but I'll try :)
The past few weeks have really been a struggle for me (as noted in the highschool/college post). Just to recap for anyone who didn't read that one, I have felt like though I am in college, my family still has it in mind that I am not. I got SO FED UP with it because I think I should be doing things different than what is going on right now. Sunday afternoon was the last straw, and I finally broke down (to my grandparents, oddly enough). And then I felt a little better, just sort of getting it all out. But I realized there was so much more built up. I really hadn't thought of it as a grudge or a big deal, but it definitely was. There was STILL more in there, and more that was added, last night. I really wanted to drive to prayer at the church, because my dad had let me do it the week before. Since there was some snow on the streets in our neighborhood, my mom had to take me. That was another bit of bitterness (wow, didn't think it was THAT bad!).
I got to prayer and just started worshipping and walking around and stuff when I just had this feeling to go get my journal out. So I did, and it started pouring out through my fingertips to the pen onto the paper. All the thoughts, frustration, everything was thrust out of my being onto the page. And, of course, I started bawling. Then started the healing/recovery process. It's kind of ironic (but I guess that's how God works), because my prayer when I was done writing was that my parents would trust me more. God started speaking to me through song (what a surprise [not really]) I hadn't really understood fully what the second part of the chorus to "Healer" by Planetshakers was until then. "I believe you're my Portion. I believe you're more than enough for me. Jesus, you're all I need." God was saying that I just needed to put all my trust in Him...He will walk with me through the fire, and calm my raging seas. But He can't do that without all my trust.
Wow, did I feel like a weight was lifted off! or should I say weights: frustration, doubt, worry, lukewarmness, etc. I received a new fresh appetite for the Lord. I have been praying for a long time for a new revelation from Him, and I got it. Now I seriously can't stop thinking about Him. He really is always on my mind.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
College: physically High School: mentally (and sometimes physically)
I have been going through some tough stuff lately dealing with my college situation while living at home. Though I am currently enrolled at UNO, I feel like no one besides me in my family has made the mental switch over to knowing that I am in college. I talk to all my colleagiate friends, and they are living in the dorms, not needing to ask before they go somewhere or not having anyone look over their shoulder and make sure they are going to bed on time, etc. and i think of my life.
I am driven to school and home from school every day.
I have to fully inform my parents of what I have going on so that they can DRIVE me there, since, of course, I can't drive at night to go to church, cru, cell group, etc.
I have to make sure my room is in order every day and make my bed every day to make sure it's okayed by my mom.
I have to do chores, do my homework, etc. when my parents tell me to.
I have to go to bed when everyone else does (by 10) every nite.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but right now I do not want to be in this house. I need space, I need wiggle room, I need a place I can grow on my 0wn. I am at my wit's end. I know that God is putting me through this to grow me, but right now, I am longing to see the light at the end of the tunnel- to be off at college.
I'm praying so much for this whole person scholarship at ORU. I want it SO bad, and am praying that God has his hand on my application, on my interview, and on the judges' decisions when I do go down to tulsa to compete. But if it isn't God's will for me to go to ORU next year, I will definitely be living in the dorms at UNO.
I am driven to school and home from school every day.
I have to fully inform my parents of what I have going on so that they can DRIVE me there, since, of course, I can't drive at night to go to church, cru, cell group, etc.
I have to make sure my room is in order every day and make my bed every day to make sure it's okayed by my mom.
I have to do chores, do my homework, etc. when my parents tell me to.
I have to go to bed when everyone else does (by 10) every nite.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but right now I do not want to be in this house. I need space, I need wiggle room, I need a place I can grow on my 0wn. I am at my wit's end. I know that God is putting me through this to grow me, but right now, I am longing to see the light at the end of the tunnel- to be off at college.
I'm praying so much for this whole person scholarship at ORU. I want it SO bad, and am praying that God has his hand on my application, on my interview, and on the judges' decisions when I do go down to tulsa to compete. But if it isn't God's will for me to go to ORU next year, I will definitely be living in the dorms at UNO.
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