I have been going through some tough stuff lately dealing with my college situation while living at home. Though I am currently enrolled at UNO, I feel like no one besides me in my family has made the mental switch over to knowing that I am in college. I talk to all my colleagiate friends, and they are living in the dorms, not needing to ask before they go somewhere or not having anyone look over their shoulder and make sure they are going to bed on time, etc. and i think of my life.
I am driven to school and home from school every day.
I have to fully inform my parents of what I have going on so that they can DRIVE me there, since, of course, I can't drive at night to go to church, cru, cell group, etc.
I have to make sure my room is in order every day and make my bed every day to make sure it's okayed by my mom.
I have to do chores, do my homework, etc. when my parents tell me to.
I have to go to bed when everyone else does (by 10) every nite.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but right now I do not want to be in this house. I need space, I need wiggle room, I need a place I can grow on my 0wn. I am at my wit's end. I know that God is putting me through this to grow me, but right now, I am longing to see the light at the end of the tunnel- to be off at college.
I'm praying so much for this whole person scholarship at ORU. I want it SO bad, and am praying that God has his hand on my application, on my interview, and on the judges' decisions when I do go down to tulsa to compete. But if it isn't God's will for me to go to ORU next year, I will definitely be living in the dorms at UNO.
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